Fragments Gallery
Remembering Why
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why go back there, why do this again? I know how much it hurts you."
"I have to face it."
"But why?"
"Because I do!"
"Is that the best reason you can come up with?"
"Yes... No. It's just... I can't hide forever. I have to face this place, what it means."
"Are you sure? We aren't even there yet and already I can see tears in your eyes."
"No you don't! I told you, I'm fine!"
"From your expression there might as well be tears. Look man you have nothing to prove. If this is going to hurt you don't do it. She wouldn't want that."
"There are lots of things that she wouldn't have wanted. For her to see me now… I... I've fallen apart man. Years ago when we were fresh out of high school we had the whole 'what happens if I die before you' speech. Looking back it's almost like she knew that this would happen."
"Why? What'd she say?"
"She told me... told me that if I outlived her I had to move on. She made me promise."
"What'd you say to that?"
"I told her there was no chance of that happening... She'd be the one outliving me. She just gave me this sad smile and laughed."
"You ok man?"
"Yeah... I'm fine. It's just... I miss her. Without her the world seems darker, problems seem bigger. I miss her.... Sometimes I still wonder... If I could have saved her if been a little bit faster."
"There was nothing you could have done. The wind picked up at the wrong time. She lost her balance, moved a little too close to the edge and the path gave out beneath her. She knew the risks of being out there just as well as you did."
"I could have been closer. If I'd been closer I might've caught her. She'd still be here."
"Or you might've gone over with her and you'd both have fallen."
"Sometimes I think that would have been better... Then we'd be together."
"No. Absolutely not. Then the world would have lost two brilliant minds instead of one. If that's what this is about then I'm turning this car around right now. I'm not taking you back up there so that you can join her."
"I know. That's not what this is about. I just think that if I can be up there maybe I can finally let go. I'm just struggling with it. Letting go feels too much like I'd be abandoning her. Part of me thinks that if I let go I'm somehow letting her down."
"You just said it yourself. She wanted you to move on."
"I know… I know. It's just tough."
"You'll get there man. You'll get there…"